Holidays

Away we have gone on Holidays and it's kind of amazing how much extra work it is.  We have to make sure we have milk for the road with all the medicine pre measured in sippy's.  He needs pills to take milk, getting his 2 year molars so there is the medicine for that, his Syldenafil and his nasal spray.... That's not including the barage of toys needed to make it there with a sound mind, lol.  I think it's time to invest in a portable DVD player so that our sanity can remain in tact, lol.  It's been great being with the Grandparents, it's been a long time since I've had this kind of help.  The lack of diaper duty has been a major pleasure, just that alone is the worth the holiday and the 11 hour drive.  The lack of sleep with Adam being stressed from travel and being in a new place has been really hard to handle, but the happiness of him being with family is worth that as well.  As a parent there are so many sacrifices made for the happiness of a child that are sooooo worth it in the long run.  While here I came to a major realization.  While most Moms don't want their children to grow up and want them to stay little for forever, while my outlook is that I am fighting for the opposite cause.  Every day I fight for my son to grow up, reach each milestone and have a long, healthy life.  I won't cry when he gets older and go to school, I am so excited for these things because that means he has lived more days and will keep going.  In my mind I will do everything I can for him to be a contributing part of society because he has to grow up.  He promised me when he was born that he would give me grand children so I am holding him to that.  While here my husband and I celebrated our 4 years wedding anniversary.  It was nice to have some time together, but it wasn't the same as any others.  It's hard because the stresses of everything have really taken their toll on our marriage and we're now trying to get it back.  It's sad to me that my 4 year anniversary didn't seem to matter too much this year, though I do have hope that our 5 year will mean something to me.  Having children changes everything in a marriage whether good or bad.  Learning your child will fight for their life for the rest of their life turns a marriage upside down if one isn't ready to be there.