2012

Well it is 2012 my year of change and moving forward whether or not it hurts and I have to leave those I love behind.  2011 right up until the last minute was one of the worst years of my entire life. It literally could not get any lower.  My marriage was in shambles, New Years Eve brought on even more awful information and my heart couldn't break any further.  Adam wasn't well, low energy, hurting legs, headaches, sensitive ears, cranky, heart pains, blueish hands and feet, shortness of breath and our house was shambles.  January 1, 2012 rolled around and I vowed to make changes, find balance and live life.  If I can't get any lower in my personal life then the only way is up.  If Adam isn't well then we need to live day to it's fullest because you never know, tomorrow could be his last.  With that outlook I go to the gym a couple times a week, 30 mins of a workout does my mind and body wonders and I can confidently make time for myself.  My amazing day time position has increased, I am now recruiting for all positions, we have become very busy and life there is great. My Avon had increased a ton, more reps, more customers and a bit more of a busy life there.  Peanut takes up the rest of my time with either not feeling well, sleeping well or being crazy.  If I can still manage to take in gym time then anyone can.  Baths, tea, wine have all taken a special part in my life and watching movies on Netflix are fitting in to ensuring I am getting time to myself and relax.  We spent a long day at the hospital meeting Adam's new specialist who changed some of his meds as the one was having awful side affects.  Hoping that his blueness goes away, his SOB becomes less and he improves.  He is definitely getting symptoms and with time will progress so each day we need to live life.  He is driving me batty with being over tired all the time, I wanna pull my hair out and create a sleeping bag that velcro's to the wall to make kids go to bed hahaha